Vicky Pattison has urged everyone to be more honest about how they’re feeling in an incredibly emotional post.
The reality star, 31, opened up in the raw and lengthy post about how she was feeling ‘sad’ and ‘lonely’ and was worried over ‘weight gain’.
She took to Instagram where she confessed that she felt like a ‘fraud’ after five different female fans told her she was an inspiration to them because she was always so real on social media.
Vicky admitted in the caption alongside a make-up free selfie that she was struggling with her confidence ahead of attending the TV BAFTAs at the weekend.
“I don’t even know how to start this post. But I think honesty is probably the best place. So here goes, I feel sad,” she began.
“I bet I know what you’re thinking: why are you putting this on Instagram and not telling your friends?! Or your family?! Or someone who can help?!
“The answer is not straight forward so bare with me. This week no less than 5 lovely women have approached me in various places & thanked me for being myself on social media- thanked me for being real & an ‘inspiration.’
“Well I looked through my feed & I didn’t feel very inspirational at all. I felt like a fraud, like someone who is contributing to the problem that social media is creating in our society rather than someone who is fighting to be part of the solution.”
Vicky, is in an on-off relationship with Ercan Ramadan, continued that she looked like she was leading the “perfect life” with “glossy filtered pics” in “glamorous locations”, but actually it wasn’t the case.
“I’m trying not to beat myself up and rationalise that everyone wants to put their best foot forward & show how fab their life is on social media, but the fact is it’s not good enough.”
She continued that she wanted to “project positivity, love, kindness & most of all honesty” and that she didn’t want others to try and keep up with the lifestyle on Instagram “that don’t exist”.
“We are punishing ourselves because we aren’t these people & they aren’t even these f***ing people? It’s all for the ‘gram!” she raged.
Vicky went on to explain that despite appearances she was suffering from a chest infection that was making her “cranky”.
“I’m lonely, I’ve gained weight recently & it’s getting me down no matter how much I pretend I’m ok with it.”
She added: “I’m going to the Baftas for the first time on Sunday & I’m so nervous that I won’t fit in or look as good as everyone else I’m losing sleep over it.”
Explaining that she suffers from a sleep-eating disorder, and had eating Doritos in her sleep, the reality star said she was “overwhelmed in the world I’m in”.
“I miss my mam, i’m sick of living out of a suitcase, I’m drowning in these thoughts and I don’t feel inspirational.
“My point is, maybe if we’re more honest, we all won’t feel so alone. THANKYOU for listening and I hope you’re a little less hard on yourselves today for it.”
After opening up many of her followers and celeb pals rushed to offer their support to Vicky.
Myleene Klass wrote “I’m messging you now”, with other comments from Louise Redknapp , and her former flame Mario Falcone.
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